A personal journey for me..

A personal journey for me

Dear all,

I have been reading threads about "what is the best part of anand" etc.. and have read many kind words toward me by ashishsax, kai, mahesh, kingshuk, godric, sangeeta etc etc and many others..

these kind of posts EMBARASS me HUGELY..

because i know that i am very harsh and dry at times. i get impatient, have been told that i am rude at times, and need to work more on relationships. i know that side of me exists that i am fairly aggressive

In fact, this forum is a learning experience for me because i see a marked difference in the way i "post" to the way i "talk" ..and that is indicating to me, that if i am very careful about what i post, which is the written word, i need to tbe that way even with the spoken word.. maybe because the written word is there for everyone to see, and cant be deleted and the spoken word comes out just for that moment and is personal many a time, we dont tend to be careful often.

I would like to extend my warmest regards to all my patorns, students, friends that my only objective if and when i am very "direct" or dry is that i want to create the best dancers, the best of performance, the best. But i think i need to "moderate" myself at many times i feel..

i need to be a better person, more approachable, more likeable, more earnest, more non-scary and more adjusting. i do hope over time and with the help and support of people around me, i will.

this forum has given me the platform and opportunity to say this, and i sincerely promise to myself and all around me that i will give it my best shot

i thank EVERYONE and a big hug. And hope and pray that i truly can become someone who is more enriched and calmer with time..


lots of love and huge hugs to all..

love
anand

Anand, to be honest, Kainath was just a hour ahead of me in creating the post..,

i was thinking about doing it yesterday..and when I come to office today..
i see the post..
All of us irrespective of Age , have a child within us..
and from the childhood teaching days we have favorite teachers tutors of whom we talk about, and I have even some against whom I hold a grudge. Today the post has given us to talk about you..
understand your feelings , just be detached.

and about relationships, it is just that you cant make everbody happy by being honest,
and about temperment, see to that it does not cost you dearly.., mainly this is due to being higly passionate..about whatever you do..and people not meeting the expectations..

Hi Mahesh,

Hope you doing good?

Which post of mine ur talking about??? plz let me know

""Kainath was just a hour ahead of me in creating the post..,"""


Thanks

Kai

Hey Anand

SMILE PLZZZZZZZ

Am sorry but you being too harsh to yourself by sending the above post.

I am a very outspoken person and make friends rarely. I most of the time, try to bring out bad qualities of a person instead of good.
I dont open up easily until I find that person close to my nature.


And I dont say for the sake of telling coz I dont believe in pleasing any one coz I love myself hahhhahahha so why should I please any one just kidding.

Since childhood I have loved dance and due to this didnt study well and I myself know how did I pass my BA coz I thought what am I gona get by studying when my life, my love is my dance. I never wanted to go to a dance school coz I use to think v.highly of me, but then one of my school teacher forced me to join Mr. Davar and trust me I hated to go to his classes. the reason I went more then 5yrs to him, coz I use to think that I will get the limelight and then I will become one of the trainners in the SDIPA. but Davar never thought I was worth it, and this use to kill me more as I never lost any dance contest I took part in.

When Ashley asked me to come and learn at quickstep my first reaction was "R U MAD Ash dont you think I have much better things to do"
but then I told him, Ok I will come but if I dont like you will have to give my money back.

I even asked your discription before joinning the class, now u can see how fussy I am can anybody tell I have attitude by looking at me, or tell I dont have a good nature or bla bla bla, na coz its not visible but I know its there ...I have got ego problem, I have attitude problem, I have a jealous problem, I just cant bare some one dancing better than me and many more bad things to my list but its not visible.

Same way they may be bad points in your list also but trust me Anand its not visible then why by ur this post your making one think that does Anand really have these qualities????

I know one think your in a dance field and many more people trainner also exist but there are only into money making business and your here to spread the passion of love(dance) which is in your heart to everyone who comes in your contact.

so be happy we all really mean what we are stating about you.


Kai

kainath wrote:Hi Mahesh,

Hope you doing good?

Which post of mine ur talking about??? plz let me know

""Kainath was just a hour ahead of me in creating the post..,"""


Thanks

Kai

the post about Anand..



cheers
ESM